Dear Ayala, Today it is the tenth anniversary of your death. I can’t believe that 10 years have passed since you were in my life. So much has happened that you were not part of, and at the same time, so much occurred because of you. I still miss you and wish you were with me but time does heal old wounds. I have noticed … Continue reading Time heals old wounds – a letter to my departed daughter
I receive constantly receive compliments that it is quite embarrassing. I receive positive feedback about my work, my personality and even how I look (I am a plus sized woman). I have learned how to accept the compliments but I have yet to learned how to internalize them. I say thank you to the giver, but I don’t understand what they see in me. Why do … Continue reading Compliments and Me
I hate the control money has over me. I do not waste and I do not want but still… I hate worrying about it. I hate fighting to get it. I am tired of arguing with my partner about our finances. I am tired of telling my children that we do not have enough money to purchase what they want or do what they want to … Continue reading Money
I am very busy (see Superwoman or Busy Bee). Yet for the past week I’ve had a need to write a personal post everyday . This is not me. I am used to hiding behind other people’s stories with my miscarriage research and psychic messages from soul fetuses. However during last weekend’s retreat, in a meditative state, I kept on saying the mantra “to write, to … Continue reading To post or not to post, that’s the question
One of my life lessons is learning how to receive. I know how to give and give and give. I love helping others and am that very good friend you could always count on. Sometimes I wonder whether I give in order to help the other person, or to obtain the feeling of self satisfaction I receive from helping. A few weeks ago I saw a video called A … Continue reading The flow of give and take
My sweet departed daughter, Ayala, came to visit often this weekend. I was at a weekend self awareness seminars on the Jordan River in Israel, down stream from where Christians come from around the world to be baptized. She came to me during the healing Circle of Sound session. Someone spoke of a child with cancer for whom he is helping through this time and I felt … Continue reading A welcome visit from my departed daughter
Clarity definition – clearness or lucidity as to perception or understanding; freedom from indistinctness or ambiguity. Dictionary.com Clarity for me is seeing my life without a filter. Without the noise of my thoughts. Without thinking of what society or my family believes should be done. Listening to my heart instead of my head. Clarity for me is listening to my instincts even though they often goes against … Continue reading Clarity
Lately I have been dealing with Envy, which happens to be today’s daily prompt. Why are other psychics more successful than me allowing them to survive financially only on their paychic work while I still need to hold a day job?! How is it that at age of 46 I am still in the stage in my life where I am still mothering little children and … Continue reading Greener Grass
Do people really want to hear the opinion of the psychic to their dilemmas? Not the people who come for a reading but the random person. A friend. An acquaintance. A talkative stranger. If a person tells me about a conflict or a fork in their road, am I expected to provide them the correct answer from their spiritual guides? I often find myself in … Continue reading Who am I anyway?
That initial question “what if”. An old and true game that I like to play, and coincidentally Wordpress’s Daily Prompt – The Road Less Traveled Pinpoint a moment in your past where you had to make a big decision. Write about that other alternate life that could have unfolded. What if I didn’t move to Israel and stayed in the United States, would life be easier? … Continue reading What if….